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Campestral Crime Scene

“Coming, Sir?” 

 

“In a moment. Go get started.”

 

Detective Winston hovered back by the car, letting his new partner forge ahead with all the enthusiasm that came with youth and adrenaline.  It wouldn’t hurt Stevenson to get the practice. The kid was sharp. Respectful, too.

 

Winston held his cell phone to his ear as if he were having a conversation while he studied the scene before him. Not immediately before him, but the larger scope, past the farm road and off to the horizon. Hills rolled slowly away from him, lush with pastures dotted with cattle, fields sown with rows of crops, and scattered with well-watered trees.  The green was crisscrossed by an occasional fence line, a pond here and there, still, shimmering like huge shards of glass. He could hear only birds and the low rumble of voices down by the road where the body of a young girl had been discovered in a ditch.

 

Good thing he was retiring soon. He was losing his grip. And longing to let go. 

 

“You okay?” Stevenson said, startling him.

 

Winston heaved a sigh. He had obviously been “on the phone” too long. 

 

“No,” Winston responded. “But let’s get it done.”

 

“If you aren’t feeling well, Sir—“

 

“I just needed a minute, Stevenson.”

 

“It’s an average crime scene. I think we can pick up plenty of evidence, have some solid leads to help us wrap it up soon. Still hard with such a young victim.”

 

“That’s not what’s getting to me, believe it or not. It’s the place.”

 

“The place, Sir?”

 

“This,” Winston said, sweeping his hand across the view before them, “is exactly the campestral location I dreamed of moving to when I retire. No noise, dirt but no filth. No crime scenes. Away from this line of work, you know? Now I’m going to go down there and ruin my vision.”

 

“I’m sorry, Sir,” Stevenson said after a few moments of silence during which they stared out at the horizon. “Is there something I can do? Would you like to stay here at the car? Headache? Upset stomach? I believe I can handle this one, if you’d like. I can come get you if I run across something I need help with.”

 

“I like you, Stevenson. You’re going to do just fine. I can’t expect to retire from reality, though, can I? Fact is, there is no perfect place on this earth. Not now, anyway.” Winston pocketed his phone. “Show me what you’ve found in our campestral crime scene.”


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From the prompt: Crime Scene from Monthly Prompts, January 2019 http://www.writerwrite.co.za and M-W word of the day: campestral.

 



 

 

 

Day One

Day One

She had decided to stay.

It had been touch and go for weeks now. Pros and cons. Lists. Packing and unpacking. Restless nights. Exhausted days. Nothing was getting done. Everything was stacking up.

All a result of indecision. Procratination? Sometimes, perhaps.

It took time to weigh the devil you knew with the devil that’s new.

Then there were vows. In a world where promises were lyrics to unfinished songs, she decided she wanted a masterpiece. She would never have one if she gave up.

“Oh there are other songs to sing,” her friends would say. “Other fish in the sea, easier to swim with.”

But were there really? Weren’t they all just imperfect fish, each with individual foibles and assets. When she put her mind to it, focusing on the strengths rather than the shortcomings, he was worth the effort.

Wasn’t something more precious if one worked for it?

Not to mention that looking at things truthfully, she could do better. If she expected him to, then she must be willing to work at this, too.

She stayed up late into the night making peanut brittle, his favorite. He never asked for it anymore.

Peanut brittle was the handsel she’d sent him off to work with this morning.

She could already feel the difference that came from being resolute and determined.

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From the prompt, Day One from Monthly Prompts, January 2019 http://www.writerswrite.co.za and Mirriam Webster’s word of the day: handsel

Warm-Up

“I’m telling you up front, I don’t care who wins.” Jason walked to the starting line, bounced a couple times and stretched.

Matt stopped his warmup and looked at Jason like he was speaking a foreign language. “How can you not care who wins? That’s nuts, Man. Why are we even doing this?”

“To help you practice.”

“If you just let me win, how will that challenge me?”

“I never said I was going to let you win. I’ll do my best. If your best is better than mine, happy for you, Dude. If it’s not today, maybe next time. Either way my personal best is an achievement, right?”

Matt shook his head. “Sorry. Losing is failure. Pure and simple.”

“Really? But doesn’t someone have to lose for there to be a winner?” Jason asked.

“Now you’re just messing with my head.”

“I’m not. It’s not hard. Pure and simple, competition isn’t the only thing that motivates excellence. Achievement works, too. Otherwise, you would have to be the winner all the time in everything, and that simply isn’t possible. There is always something that someone can do better than you can. We all have gifts.”

“That’s crap, Man. I’m good at this because I work at it. I train. I make sacrifices. Nobody handed me no gift.”

“Yeah, but the next guy–probably me–could work side by side with you, working on the same skill in the same way just as hard and never be as good. It’s called talent. Natural ability. And it is a gift. Something you are born with. Every person has one.”

“Look, Mr. Philosophy, don’t you have a photography group to meet up with this afternoon? Are you going to race me, or just talk me to death?”

“I don’t care who wins,” Jason said, giving him a taunting grin.

“Fine. You’ll eat my dust regardless. Achieve that!” Matt grinned at him and punched a button on his watch. “Five, four, three, two…RUN!”

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QUOTE PROMPT:

A creative man is motivated by the desire to achieve, not by the desire to beat others. ~Ayn Rand

One Day Down

I have designated January the month of the house reboot. I have chosen 9 days, each devoted to a room of the house, to purge, rearrange and clean, top to bottom.

Today was day one. I chose to tackle the kitchen out of necessity. The new stove cost me some drawer space, so the kitchen was a shambles anyway. Too. Much. Stuff. For one. Second I decided to be a bit more strategic about what occupies prime shelf and drawer space.

We shall celebrate progress. I knew this would be the hardest room to wrestle to simplicity, so I went with “eating the live toad” philosophy from the poster in my sister’s bedroom from long ago that advised: Eat a live toad in the morning and nothing worse can happen to you for the rest of the day.

Kitchen is half done. We will revisit.

And I even managed to use my new oven in the midst of all the chaos. No-knead bread and roasted garlic chicken.

And that’s all I can manage today. Boring I know.

Yellow

It’s not my color.

I made my own dress for my 8th grade graduation. Loved the fabric–a flowing, soft yellow and pink floral print and I was totally in love with the pattern for the dress. I worked hard on that dress–carefully, painstakingly. It was as perfect as I could make a dress. I couldn’t wait to wear it.

When I finally put it on, I was so disappointed. Something was off. Couldn’t put a finger on exactly what, though.

This was to become a theme throughout my life, but that’s another story.

Much later I came to learn it was likely because I can’t wear yellow. Or cream. Or brown with a yellow base. When I do, people inevitably ask me if I’m sick or tired.

So for a long time I thought I didn’t like yellow. But that was wrong, too. I love yellow, just not on me.

I Am Here

For now I am linking my posts to my photo challenge for the day,

Until I get on a roll.

I miss this. I really do. I have been writing for myself since September, but I’m ready to get started again for a broader audience. If they will have me.

We’ve been talking to Alexa. Surely we can do better. 🙂

<<<<<<<<<“I am here.” Is the prompt:

It was a job getting here today. Went back and forth from car to house three times before I finally left my house. To arrive here. Where the berries are beautiful, and the birds are frantic about the sunflower seeds that are left.

Inside is warmth and fragrance and football and good food–hearty, healthy and simple. And most important, family. Family with wide open arms to graciously accept strangers as part of the family, even if the “temporary” family is deaf, legally blind and autistic.

I married into a special family. I wish I could adequately express how grateful I am.

Little Learners

Thankful today for eager and creative young minds.

Photo by Anissa Thompson

Let’s work to keep those minds creative and excited about learning! 

Forever Changed

I am appreciating today one of those special events that are life-altering.

Twenty-three years ago, I was ready for my second child to make an appearance. Labor started late morning.  Because the second baby progresses faster, I called my midwife.  I don’t know when she arrived.  I do know it was sooner than necessary, which did not please her husband for some reason.  They had plans or he needed the vehicle. Something like that.

I didn’t see anyone else for most of the rest of the day, until the baby was born. My mother-in-law showed up and took our five-year-old for the day.  My parents drove down and parked in the living room. Was my sister there?  You know I find it awful that I can’t remember! I need to dig out the pictures! I think it was just my parents who waited for many hours in my living room for the arrival of a new grandbaby.

But in the room on the southeast corner of my house, it was just me, my husband-turned-labor-coach, my midwife, and the little one on the move.  I wasn’t as mobile with this delivery–not walking the block or the living room, like I did with the first one.  Things seemed a lot more intense, and I really just wanted to stay in one place. And labor.

It took longer than any of us expected.  I remember one point when my husband trying to be funny. When didn’t go over well, my midwife announced I was in transition.

Still things weren’t progressing like I wanted them to.  Or how anyone wanted them to.  There was a sense of uneasiness about the midwife as she listened to the baby and to me.  “Baby doesn’t like it when you lay on your left,” she would change and I would struggle to move.  Then it was “try this” or “maybe this would be better.”  Always smooth and steady, she was a rock who never issued orders or commands.  She trusted the process and she trusted me. Finally, I remember saying, “Well someone has to do something to get this done. I guess it has to be me.” Duh.

At that point I got out of bed.  The baby liked that. The end stages of labor were immediate and all-consuming. I pushed in a squatting position.  Once I decided to “do something” the  baby was here.  And very quiet. For just a little bit.

My husband,behind me, said he was staring at a very blue infant; he thought the baby was dead and the midwife was acting like nothing was wrong so she didn’t freak us out.  She started massaging and talking–that’s what I heard and I found it comforting as well–and finally, that welcomed cry came, his skin pinked up, and we were the proud parents of a new baby boy who was ready to be heard.

I do remember that the pictures show that my poor husband looked more tired from the ordeal than I did,  Such a trooper.

The umbilical cord had been wrapped around the baby’s neck and shoulder, which was what had made the delivery more difficult.  Not to mention that rather large head….

Once my new son found his voice, he exercised it with vigor.  As the midwife weighed him, and he was thrashing and screaming, I remember her saying, “This one has an attitude!”

His brother and grandmother came home soon after he was born.  Everyone took turns welcoming him.  I love looking at the picture of him gazing at my mother with that intensity newborns have when they are fully alert and learning who loves them.

Does he have an attitude?  Yes. It is easy to tell when he’s angry or upset, or feels an injustice has been committed. As a young boy and as a teenager it was sometimes a struggle to control the gut reactions that came with those strong feelings.

It is also easy to tell when his heart is fully engaged, which is often.  He cares deeply about people, and wants nothing more than to be of help.  He listens with devoted attention, gently offers some of the most reassuring words or suggestions. His smile and his hug come readily for anyone, young and old alike.

I remember getting my first kisses from him; I was standing in my kitchen holding him…
I remember being concerned that he wasn’t talking much when he was three.  Just as I started investigating speech therapists and such, he began talking. Not in one-syllable words, but in complete and complex sentences.
He took his good old time learning to read as well.  By then, though, I had learned that he takes his good old time learning just about everything, but he does learn, and then he becomes skilled quickly thereafter.
He has brought a darling daughter into my life.

So had the events of June 2, 1992 never occurred, the life I know now would have been very different.  I can’t be grateful enough for that day 23 years ago that brought the pain, the fear, the exhaustion, the cry, and the satisfying joy that is mIMG_0939y son.

What a precious present.

Day 3 – Attention-Giving

Today’s Journaling Prompt:

from Michael Pearlman

Carolyn,

According to Law of Attraction, we attract to our lives whatever we give our attention to, whether wanted and/or unwanted. Describe in one sentence something that is uncomfortable and unwanted for you. Then give 5 minutes to writing about how you would like things to be.

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Photo by Amy Burton

I first have to clarify that I know nothing about the Law of Attraction and I am not sure I would agree with it.  Our attention must be followed with action. And without focus, it is easy to lose sight of what we need to be doing. 

Ack! Not the topic! Focus! 

The clutter in my house makes me uncomfortable and is unwanted.

I would love for each and every room in my house to contain only what should be there in limited quantity enough for everything to have a home. That’s what I have wanted for years and years and years. The living room is that way since we put in new carpet and had to clear EVERYTHING out of the room to have it done.

I am an intelligent woman. I have made these sort of changes before. There was a time when my car looked like it was where I lived. Because is spent more time in it than I did my apartment. Books, clothes, papers, magazines, etc.,etc., etc. If I was going to fill my car with passengers, I had to spend way too much time emptying it out and cleaning first. Not to mention the time I spent looking for things under the seats and in the trunk.

One day I decided I didn’t want to do that any more. I cleaned out my car and kept it that way. Still do. For the most part.

Even before that, when I was a kid, probably a teenager or close to it, I found it easier to drape clothes carefully at the foot of my bed than hang them up or fold them and put them in a dresser. Then one day I would realize that my footboard was a mountain of clothes and almost everything I owned needed ironing. Not washing, mind you. The dirty clothes went to the laundry hamper and Mom washed them and hanged them on hangers.

Well one day I decided that if I changed clothes in the closet it was easier to hang them up rather than drape them on the bed.

The days of my clothing mountain footboard were over.

So how do I translate that into an entire house?

  • recognize the issue
  • remind myself of the goal until it is accomplished
  • make the changes necessary
  • maintain it

That’s what I did before. Time to make it happen again. And again. And again.

Tell Me Your Story

So today’s journal prompt was an interview with my body. For real?  My body had nothing to say.  Or at least was shy about talking if it were to an unspecified number of people (as in other than me) so I am doing something else here today.

Some characters came to visit me in two previous posts, Friends and Rendezvous.

Fiona and Arthur wanted to talk today, even though I tried to persuade them to wait until November when the word count would be legal. Whether or not these passages even make it into the story remains to be seen, as it is still evolving. But it never hurts to get to know them.

To “get” the opening, it will help to read the previous posts.

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Arthur meticulously cleaned the gravy off of his plate with the last piece of dinner roll.  It made Fiona want to scream.  She had exercised just about every bit of patience she possessed. Yet  if she rushed him, she would likely get nothing.

After he carefully arranged his utensils on the clean plate, he began without preamble:

“Pearl loved plums and red and the violin. She laughed a lot. But she never reminded me of her mother, though I longed for her to do so. She simply existed on the earth as one-of-a-kind, a unique Pearl.” He paused.

For a long time.

He wanted to stop.  Fiona knew before he said, “Are you sure you just want to sit there and listen to me ramble. I mean, it seems hardly fair for me to go on and on about my family and know nothing about yours.”

“What do you want to know?” she asked, leaning back in her chair.  It seemed wise to lull him into comfort. At least this felt like progress. It wasn’t mind-numbing waiting.

“Where are you from? What do your parents do?” Arthur asked.

“I was born in Connecticut. But I have lived in Florida, Nebraska, Nevada, New York, Maine and now here in Checotah, Oklahoma.”

“For goodness sake! What are your parents? Gypsies? Oh, that’s not politically correct these days.  I’m sorry.  Have you ever lived in one place for more than a couple years? How old are you anyway?”

“I am fourteen. And barely, to answer the other question. My parents are chemical engineers specializing in water quality and water quality protection. They go where there are issues to consult with locals and come up with solutions. Or prevention strategies.”

“Having trouble with Grand Lake, are we?”

“I wouldn’t know. They don’t discuss their work with me. Or much else, for that matter.”

“Ah, now you sound more like a teenager. There’s the anger.”

“Anger? I guess if facts are the same as anger, you are spot on. I know and accept the facts. I think it makes me a realistic, not necessarily angry.”

“I suppose that’s a good point. You seem to have a level head and an older soul. Older than fourteen.”

“Interesting. What kind of soul do you have?”

“Oh. Well. Turn-about is fair play, is it?” Arthur paused to think, slowly stirring sugar into the coffee that Bea had just refilled. “Pie? I recommend the lemon.”

“Sure.”

Photo by Marina Garcia

Photo by Marina Garcia

He motioned Bea back and ordered an additional piece of pie. They waited in silence–again!–for the two-minute forever it took Bea to deliver two plates.  He dug in immediately. Probably because the lemon was pungent, and the meringue a mile high and so very light, perfectly browned.

Fiona expected that he would “forget” her question. She picked at her pie and waited. Again.

“Tired,” he said, finally. “I have a tired soul.”

“Is that from age? Or events?”

“Both. And I think my soul is feeling a little bit of panic as well.”

“Because of me?”

“Because of you. Because of exhuming old bones.  I may need to ease into this Pearl thing, Fiona. I haven’t talked about her with anyone remotely compassionate since she died.”

Shock silenced her for a few moments.

“She died? When? How?”

Fiona watched him swallow hard, and his hands trembled as they balled up one edge of his napkin.

“Give me time. Please. I would rather you hear it from me than from the gossip you will surely hear sooner or later. Make it later.”

The urgency in his voice stirred her heart and her curiosity.

“I promise I will hear your story first.” She wanted to reach out and put her hand on his by way of reassurance, but thought better of it.

They finished their pie in silence.

She had blocked them out earlier, but now Fiona’s attention was drawn to the table of her classmates behind Arthur. They would look up until she met someone’s gaze, then lean in together and whisper, pretending to be occupied with their business until it was safe to stare again.  Someone would make some comment. No doubt snide. Everyone would laugh. The football captain caught her eye once and gave her a bold stare until she decided to concentrate on her oh-so-flaky pie crust. All of a sudden she felt self-conscious and a little bit scared.

“Do we have to meet here?” she finally asked Arthur.

“I can feel their stares with my back turned,” he replied. “Are you having second thoughts?”

“No. No, I said I wanted to hear you out and I do. I just think it would be easier for us both if we didn’t have an audience.”

“I always have an audience,” he said. He wiped his mouth and folded his napkin and placed it beside his empty pie plate. “I could eat, then meet you at the library, I suppose.”

“Not at your house?”

“Are you insane, Fiona? Don’t you know what kind of world you live in? You barely know me. How could that possibly be a safe thing to do? Don’t your parents–” He pulled himself up short, and pressed his lips together to block the flow of words.

“Would you would hurt me?”

“Of course I wouldn’t, but the fact is that I could say that and still be a serial killer. No. We will meet at the library after I have my meal.”

“Fine.” She felt oddly hurt that he would take such a tone with her. If barely knowing him prohibited her from going to his home, then surely barely knowing her should prohibit him from chastising her like a parent. Or a grandparent.

Fiona gathered her notebook and stuffed it in her backpack. She pulled a five from the side pocket and tossed it on the table. “See you tomorrow,” she said, as she stood, feeling uneasy about being rude to him and at the same time feeling he’d earned it.

“Tomorrow,” he said.

He sounded tired.